show me the meaning.

Feeling so meaningless now. Don't know why. I just allowed the June holidays to pass like that. Barely even study during this holidays. Wonder how am i going to sit for my O levels. I won't be surprise if my results don't come out good. I wish i am able to isolate myself from everything else and study. But everytime i try, i keep going back. This is so irritating. If only i was a natural born genius. Then perhaps i don't have to worry this much. But sadly, i am not. I guess i should try living a few days without my handphone. Keeps ringing and all. All the distractions. Got to go school tomorrow for class. I just hope that i will be able to wake up. It's been a long time since i last wake up so early, tie my hair and go to school. I'm pretty excited actually. Can get myself away from certain stuff. Feel like going fisherman village again with the gang. Haha. I guess i'll drink more than the other time. Just very tired now i suppose. I just want to finish my education and get on with life. Sigh.