Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Thank You Edna!

I was feeling really horrible about 2 hours ago. But, someone came and became a great comfort to me. It's none other than Edna! Although i only know her for awhile, but i just feel that it is so easy to pour out everything to her. I've never shared with someone the things that are deep in my heart before. And towards her, it's so comfortable just expressing myself. She just makes me smile whenever we chat. And we always tell each other how we're smiling or laughing infront of our monitor and how our brothers think we're crazy! It's amazing to have a friend like her around.

Emptiness

I've never felt so empty before.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

depressed.

I never felt more like a failure than today.

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Another long night tonight.

It's 3am and i'm still awake. I'm planning not to sleep actually. Going for service in the morning. And if i sleep, i probably won't wake up as well. So now, Jo and me are actually playing games on MSN to keep oursleves awake. If i had reached home earlier, i may have decided to sleep. But i reached home at 1am. It was definitely an amazing Saturday.

Went for service. The presence of God was really tangible. After service, we went Marina Square to fellowship. HeXing, Shawn, WenBin and i went Hong Kong cafe to eat. And our bill cost up to $65.45!! We almost fainted!! But it was a great fellowship. Then, i also realised how Sue feels to be the only girl during fellowships. Haha.

Well, i'm now going to go back to playing games with Jo!! Tata!!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Anti-Smoking Job

I worked on Monday and Tuesday. Was working at Tiong Bahru Plaza. Wroked from 11am to 7.30pm. Really long hours. Anyway, many things happend.

On Monday, i was actually stationed to give out flyers outside so i went to the MRT control station to give out. As i was walking back to get more flyers as those in my hands were finishing, a guy stepped up to me and started chatting with me about the flyer. So i explained to him what it was about. After that, he told me that he already was having a bad day as he came to the appointment 1 day earlier. In my heart i was laughing like crazy but of course i had to look as if i'm concerned. Then, he asked for my contact and i wish him a good day and walked away. Okay, that was just the frst part of my nightmare. After that, i continued to give out at the control station and a lady-this time, walked up to me and naturally, i gave a flyer. She spoke to me in Manderine, which i barely understood. Anyway, she managed to get my contact and wanted to meet me on Tuesday night after my work to discussed about her business. So i agreed to it. After all these, i gave up and started top work at the booth instead. The worst thing happened. I was sharing with a man about the whole thing and he used a magazine and smack my butt. I was shocked and i didn't know how to respond but to ask him to just take a picture. I then faster run away. That was Monday.

Now, Tuesday. Tuesday was filled with lots of fun with the girls. Anyway, remember the guy who wanted my contact. He came back to look for me. I didn't notice him but the girl i was with noticed him smiling at me and when she asked me if he was my friend i was like... "What??" I jumped and ran back to the booth and he also walked away. Before my work was over, another guy asked for my number infront of the girls i was working with. But i ignored. So embarrassing cause he kind of shouted. So i guess other people heard also. It was such and exciting time at work, excluding all those weird things that happened to me. The girls made it so fun!!

I'm now thinking of the things i can do when i wake up from my long sleep. Haven't had a good sleep for a very long time. But, now, i'm still chatting with Yufen and Edna online. So i guess i won't be sleeping so soon as well. wOoOo!!

Saturday, January 5, 2008

Long night.

It has been a long night. Went to meet Yufen at Tampines. We then went down to AMK to meet Samuel and his friends. Hexing joined us minutes later. Anyway, guess where we went. We headed to Wayne's house to "steal" connection to upload some photos into Samuel's laptop. Apparently, it failed. We sat at the staircase and played Bridge. Yufen and I headed back home first as i had to do Puspa's card. And now it's close to 4am. Wondering why I'm not asleep? I was worried that if i sleep, i wouldn't be able to wake up. As a result, i stayed awake the whole night. Well, a few more hours to go!! "Ta han"!! But i can't deny that i'm feeling tired and sleepy. Afterall, my bed is just right beside me. It's so torturing!

On the way down to AMK, bumped into Derence. Didn't see him at first but i felt some people looking at me so i turned and looked as well. And i saw him with his friends starring at me. I was shocked, to be honest. I thought that i would never see him again. It's not that i don't want to. Is just that we've never met up ever since that time i told him that it was impossible for us. That was one of the most heartbreaking thing i had to do to myself. Anyway, we didn't contacted since besides when i invited him for Christmas service. Emotions got mixed up when i saw him. Somehow in my heart, i felt that i still owe him an explanation. But it doesn't matter now i guess. I suppose both of us has moved on.

My O levels results are coming out in a few weeks time. I am honestly very nervous. But last week during service, i poured out everything in the presence of God. Although to some people O levels is a piece of cake, to me, it determines whether my dream can come true. Anyway, i cried during praise until the end of worship. I put my trust in God. Whether i do well or not, i know that He has a greater plan for my life. I know i've done my best. Still thinking how am i going to spray my hair black on that day.

3 more hours and i have to be out of the house. Actually, i can sleep!! But i can be quite sure that i won't wake up. God!! Help me stay awake!

Thursday, January 3, 2008

It's been a long time

Wow. it's been a long time since i actually blogged properly. It was due mostly because of my laziness and lack of words. But anyway, i'll try too blog more often now.

I woke at 5pm today. For a good reason of course. I reached home at ard 8am this morning. Was over at Huiwen's chalet. What an awesome night it was! We kicked off the night by going over to Old Changi Hospital. This time, i had a different feeling in the "tour". Last night, i was with holy and spiritual friends. So it wasn't that scary. The other time i was with my classmate. So i felt less secure. But it was lots of fun. We took photos there too! Unbelievable, right? I didn't dare to take at first. But i was dragged by Sue. But it was awesome. Got 2 leaders there to protect us. So no problem at all. We played card games through the whole night. Can't believe that i didn't sleep. The moment i reached home, i fell flat on my bed and slept all the way till 5pm. Can't help it.

It's already Thursday. Tomorrow i've got lots of things to do. For example, getting presents and doing card. And those are some things that i find difficulty in doing. But nevertheless, i'm excited.

Well, it's a new year, new beginnings, new goals. And every year, one of my year's resolution is to lose weight. Last year, i lost 2kg. I guess it's a good thing. I plan to lose another 3kg this year. If possible, more. But with my laziness and constant hunger in the night, it's hard..

Alright. I guess i started the year quite well with this entry. I promise next time will be longer. I can't recall everything that has been happening. So can't type them down. But 2008 will be better for my blog! :)