It has been a long night. Went to meet Yufen at Tampines. We then went down to AMK to meet Samuel and his friends. Hexing joined us minutes later. Anyway, guess where we went. We headed to Wayne's house to "steal" connection to upload some photos into Samuel's laptop. Apparently, it failed. We sat at the staircase and played Bridge. Yufen and I headed back home first as i had to do Puspa's card. And now it's close to 4am. Wondering why I'm not asleep? I was worried that if i sleep, i wouldn't be able to wake up. As a result, i stayed awake the whole night. Well, a few more hours to go!! "Ta han"!! But i can't deny that i'm feeling tired and sleepy. Afterall, my bed is just right beside me. It's so torturing!
On the way down to AMK, bumped into Derence. Didn't see him at first but i felt some people looking at me so i turned and looked as well. And i saw him with his friends starring at me. I was shocked, to be honest. I thought that i would never see him again. It's not that i don't want to. Is just that we've never met up ever since that time i told him that it was impossible for us. That was one of the most heartbreaking thing i had to do to myself. Anyway, we didn't contacted since besides when i invited him for Christmas service. Emotions got mixed up when i saw him. Somehow in my heart, i felt that i still owe him an explanation. But it doesn't matter now i guess. I suppose both of us has moved on.
My O levels results are coming out in a few weeks time. I am honestly very nervous. But last week during service, i poured out everything in the presence of God. Although to some people O levels is a piece of cake, to me, it determines whether my dream can come true. Anyway, i cried during praise until the end of worship. I put my trust in God. Whether i do well or not, i know that He has a greater plan for my life. I know i've done my best. Still thinking how am i going to spray my hair black on that day.
3 more hours and i have to be out of the house. Actually, i can sleep!! But i can be quite sure that i won't wake up. God!! Help me stay awake!
