Friday, March 28, 2008

where are you now?

CAN YOU FEEL MY PAIN?

Thursday, March 27, 2008

whyy??

S I G H !

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

God is my STRENGTH

I've been really really tired physically. Decided to just write a bit before i go to bed. It was a great weekend with Pst Phil.

Yesterday(Monday), was really an exciting day. Went to meet Jiamin and Lawrence at Suntec. We ate pasta mania. Then, Yufen joined us and we went to Subway as Yufen wanted to eat there. After chatting and all, we decided to drop by at office to see Suzy. Got her bubble tea and donuts!! After that, we met Weiquan and went to foodcourt just so he could eat. Headed back after that before Yufen recieved a message to meet someone at Kallang to colloect something. So i went with her. Along the way, was preaching to her. Was really nervous!! Haha. But i learnt a lot from her. She's awesome! Anyway, after that we took a bus back. I alighted at her house bus stop so that i can take bus 22 back. Thank God i managed to get the bus. So, that was monday.

Now, Tuesday. Went to work at IMM today. Wasn't too bad. I kept telling myself that the time will pass very fast. And it did! I should do this more often. Haha. After work, i went to meet Jo at TM Mac. Ate there and then headed to Sun Plaza Park. Had a great time there. A lot of things happened but i shan't say. It's embarrassing.. So.. I just reached home not too long ago. Got work tomorrow again. But this time it's at the office at Junction 8.. So far.... But i'll be my boss' assistant(according to what she told me) and will be taking photos/ I guess it's much easier than doing sales. Haha. I hope that i won't be held up at work so that i can make it for PM at Suntec office. I really want to go..!

Easter is coming!! Believing for a breakthrough for the Cell Group as well as my Connect Group!! Thank You, Jesus, for the breakthrough and the friends who are going to be saved!

Sunday, March 9, 2008

God is SO good!

This weekend has been the best weekends of my life.

Something awesome happened to me today. During offering in service today, i felt in my heart to give everything i had in my wallet. To me, it was a huge amount. Nevertheless, i just took a step of faith to give. I know it'll touch God's heart cause it touched mine. As i gave, i believed that God will provide and bless me. I did not know how. I did not know when. But i knew that somehow God will do something that will shock me. If He did it with the mp3 i got the other time after giving a faith amount, surely He will do it again for me. So, after service we went to Marina Square to fellowship. I had to withdraw money to eat. As such, i just went to withdraw. When i reached the foodcourt where the Cell Group was, i took out the receipt and found out i had about $160 increase in my account..!! I never thought something like this would ever happen to me. It was definitely not my pay from work because my boss doesn't have my account number. In fact, no one knows my account number.. Besides God, of course! Today, i experience God's abundance and goodness in my life in the area of my finances. Each time i give my tithe, offering or my building fund, at the back of the envelope, i will write 2 things. 'Financial breakthrough' and 'Growth in E308'. I just want to encourage those who are reading this. No matter what situation you're in, i believe that God will do something for you that you can never imagine IF you put your trust and faith in Him. And like what Yufen always tell me,"our confidence is in God." If God can do something so shocking for me in my finances, He can and will do the same to you!

At the end of service today, i felt as if i was brought into the Holy of Holies. Pastor gave an altar call and i was moved and i stood up. As i was standing, i recieved a new revelation. Well at least it was for me. And that is Love for God -> Willingness-> Destiny. Today, i felt that i was a step closer to my destiny. I am so excited to what God is going to do in my life. I'm really touched by God's love for me. An imperfect person filled with so many weaknesses, yet someone so perfect and great would love me so much. His love is beautiful..!!!

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

why?

Sigh.. I wish i studied harder. The pain of regret is killing.. Although i did my best then, it still wasn't enough.. No where to go now.. I feel lost again.. The first people who said will be there for me are the first to run away when i was in need.. And it hurts.. Is it this difficult for me to do something right for once in my life? I want to do well in my studies.. But no matter how much i try, it's never enough.. I need a miracle!!