A long weekend struggling witht the thought of whether to let him know how i feel. Everytime my HP rings, and it's him, i don't know what to say. But not long ago, i told him that i can't be with him. Words that i hoped that i wouldn't have to say had to be told. It was really hard. My heart hurts. But somehow, i guess it's better that he know. I don't want to continue hurting him further. I feel bad enough making him waste his time. For the first time, i see how much he typed on MSN. Didn't know what to say. I really want him to be happy. Though i wish that i could add some joy into his life, but i'm sure he'll find someone that will be his sorce of joy. "You're one of the best thing that has ever happened in my life. Thank you for everything."
Now not really in the good mood. Earlier in the evening ran out of the house because something happened. Felt extremely hurt. But it doesn't matter. I get over it soon anyway.Now still feeling pretty low though. Especially after telling him all that after what happened at home. Not really a very good evening. [God, heal my broken heart.]
2 more days of Prelims. Tomorrow, i've got practical exam. I pray that i'll be able to concentrate and not be distracted about what happened today. Got to stay focus!Can sleep a bit more tomorrow cause i need to report of school at only 9am. Can rest more. YEAH!
