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Went out with Rachel and Juliana today. We went Bugis, as usual. Hmm.. Juli said that Azri is crazy over me which i didn't believe until he SMSed her and when she showed me. I was really shocked cause i didn't expect that and i treat him like a younger brother. Oh well. Don't really bother much. Feel pretty cold to this kind of things now. Told Derence that i don't like him. I guess he was pretty shock. I suppose i had to tell him also. Though i said that i don't like him, but i think dep inside i still do a little. But i'm not too sure either. I just don't want him to regret waiting for me. What's the point. I feel as if i'm not allowed to love a guy now. So i had to force myself not to like Derence. SIGH. Rach, juli and jinlian keep encouraging me to try out with him. But it's not that i don't want but it's i can't cause of.... Nevermind. There's nothing i can do also. In a way, i hope he'll wait..