Yesterday, while i was about to shower, i just had this desire to serve God in a ministry again. So i immediately SMS-ed Suzy and Yufen that i want to go back to Choir again. And i also told Hexing about it. So i'm really excited- for the serving part. For the audition, i'm really nervous. Never liked auditions. I always get very nervous and i will eventually embarrass myself. But anyway, i'm excited about it. I guess i lost my vision of always wanting to be a singer in future. I got it back when i was walking with Jo outside Supreme Court when the both of us were sharing on what are our top 3 "want-to-be careers". And i was reminded that my biggest dream was to be a singer. I've always wanted to be one ever since i was young. Although i don't have a fantastic voice,but, that's what i enjoy doing. I can't imagine myself working in a shop or a classroom for the rest of my life. I want to do something i enjoy, like singing and acting. Through this walk i had with Jo, i want to start all over again to walk towards my dream. Even if it doesn't come true, at least i won't live my life wondering what would have happened. I believe that through choir, i can not only build up my voice but also learn to worship God. I may not be smart or talented. But i believe that God can use my weakness and turn it into my strengths, God can use whatever i have. At the same time, my desire now is to be a CGL too. So, learning to sing would be a great help also. I can do both!! I love it! Haha.
Having a bad migrain again. It's coming back. Oh no!! Please pray for me. I woke up today with bad stomach cramps. Felt really weak too. But i'm feeling much better now. Just that my head hurts really badly. I pray that i'll be healed by tomorrow cause i've got work. Can't work when my head hurts. I also hope that i'll get my pay by tomorrow. I'm really broke already.
I want to start saving money again. Realised that i've been spending too much money on food!! And i guess everytime i go out i just tend to spend all my money on food and nothing but food. I want to begin to save money and at the end of every month get a new top or bottom to groom myself. I don't want to crack my brain every Saturday night thinking of what to wear again for service. So, from today onwards, i want to eat less and shop more!! Haha. A bit hard but i'm going to try. Besides, i'm putting on weight already. Cannot afford to put on anymore. told myself that i don't want to end up looking like my parents! Haha. So mean right? But it's true. I don't believe that's in the blood. I can break this curse! Haha. Oh my.. Does this mean i have to start exercising again? Okay then, i will! When am i free this week? Thursday morning i shall go for a jog before my tuition. Yes, i will!
I think this is one of the longest post ever. Hopefully i'll be able to have this kind of inspiration whenever i blog. Till the next time, BYE!
