Walking In The Rain.

Since November up till now. It hasn’t been easy. Things has happened and I find myself struggling everyday. Questions run through my mind like why must I go through all these and all that. I just want to be the best I can and live my life to the fullest but I don’t understand why is it so hard. I want to be strong but I’m getting really tired.

God, please give me the strength to overcome.

Everyone is talking about ending the year well and start the new year strong. And that is what I want to do. I will end the year with breakthroughs. Bringing the problems of 2010 to 2011 is not what I intend to do.

Forever Young, I Want To Be Forever Young.

I’m officially 21!

Did something today for the first time.

And that is….

To watch a movie alone!

And this is what I watched!

Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows Part One

I totally love it!

Only When I Sleep.

For the past 2 weeks, it hasn’t been quite pleasant. One sickness after another smacked me. Have been having stomach flu for 2 weeks so I decided to visit the doctor. The next day, my stomach got better and i started to have sore throat. I slowly lost my voice and got a cough. Now, I can’t stop coughing. It’s only when i sleep I don’t cough. No, actually I’ve woken up a few times because i needed to cough. I believe that my God is a Healer.

In the midst of UT1 and this week is just packed. 2 UTs and 1 assignment dateline. I’m starting to feel the stress and pressure of school. I can’t wait to graduate. Feels like I’m walking through hell!

Saving up money so that I can go shopping at the end of the year. There’s so many things that I want to buy but got to save. At least now I got one thing lesser to save for and that’s my driving. Mompy said she’s going to sponsor me but I also got to save more also. Thank God for this blessing!

I was rushing to CG last Friday, took a cab down. And from downstairs, I could hear my CG worshipping. At that moment, I just wanted to teleport up. And when I stepped into the house, tears started streaming down my eyes cause His presence was so strong that it was impossible to deny. I don’t know what I would do without His love. Truly, His love is more than enough for me.

Things hasn’t been easy. Sometimes I find myself lost and confused in my thoughts and emotions. Things I wish I knew how to put into words to share, but I can’t.

 

You’re all the love I need to have. It’s like a dream. Although I’m not asleep, I never want to wake up.

Cup Of Joy.

Happiness many times come in the small things in life. Lately, I’ve been feeling really happy. Even though there were times where I felt really down. I thank God that there is always something that I can be grateful for. There is always a reason for all of us to be happy. I don’t ever want to go through a day without being happy. Happiness is a choice; it comes from within.

I haven’t been feeling well lately. Stomach has been rather problematic. I don’t know why it has been feeling weird lately. I believe for full recovery!

We’re in the last 2 months of 2010. As I look back, 2010 was a pretty challenging year. At the same time, 2010 has been the best year yet for me. I’m looking forward to 2011! However, as i recall on the goals I have set at the beginning of the year, there were many that I didn’t mange to achieve. I learnt something, for me, I set so many goals that I am not focus. This caused me to not be able to achieve some of the goals due to the lack of focus. So for next year, I will set some more important goals and work towards it before I set others.

God is good!

Happiness Is.

Ups and downs are all part and parcel of life. However, the choice of happiness lies in us. We hold the power to choose our emotions. It isn’t very hard to choose to be happy. But it takes a lot of courage to be happy in the midst of a valley moment. And i thank God that His love and joy is always so overwhelming to me.

I can’t wait for Saturday to come cause I am going to do my hair again. I guess it’s an annual thing. But I really don’t know what to do with it this time. I don’t want to walk out of the place looking the same as last year! Any suggestions? Well, we’ll see.

I’ve been begging my Mum to get me a television. But she still isn’t supportive of it. but today, my uncle said he will be giving me one! Yippee! I can’t express in words my excitement and happiness about getting a television. I guess to many, it isn’t a big deal. But i haven’t watched television, as in really sit down an watch for more than an hour for the past 9 years? So I am really excited to be getting one.

P.S: I will turn your grey skies back to blue cause there’s nothing I won’t do for you.

Fall In.

While some Polytechnics still get to enjoy holidays, I’ve started school for 2 weeks already. It has been a challenge to wake up every morning and find a reason to go to school. I guess the only reason I have is that I want to be able to make it into the university. Even though I don’t like the course I’m in or what I am doing, I still got to work hard for the certificate to have a better future.

God has been good. Not just in good times but in bad times as well. I’m so grateful that He will never give up hope on me.

Enjoy The Ride.

Life can be like a rollercoaster ride, can it? There will be moments where we are at the highest and we have the full view of the world. But we can be at the lowest and it takes time and a lot of effort to reach the top again.

What is your perspective of life?

This year has been passing by too fast. But it has been like a rollercoaster ride for me as well. Times when I feel that everything is going well, but there were times that I find myself at the pit. I guess in a rollercoaster ride, there’s always a thrill. And I’ve experience some of my own this year. doing things that I never thought I would do. What a great experience.

I don't want to get to the end of my life and find that I lived just the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well.  - Diane Ackerman

Cradle.

In a blink of an eye and we’re in September already. I still can recall the time when I was just setting my goals for the year. Well, some I’ve achieved and many I haven’t.

Ever since UT3 is over, I have been doing nothing but having fun. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not since my PP poster is still yet to be done and my presentation date is drawing nearer! Gosh! Actually, it’s in 2 weeks time! I have to start to doing already! Throughout this period, the friendships i have are strengthened and I’m closer to those friends around me. I am truly blessed to have these people in my life. They have been adding so so much joy and laughter to my everyday. And I’m looking forward to the many more years with them.

I’ve been sleeping late recently. Bad lifestyle has returned.

It has been a tough month for me. A lot of stress, a couple of down moments, but there were moments of happiness.

God Thinks Of Me.

Psalm 139:17-18

“How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.”

Isn’t it amazing that God thinks of us so much? His thoughts towards us are always good. Who wouldn’t feel love by Jesus if they knew how much He thinks of us?

UT3 is drawing closer. And my PP presentation is coming up after that. I’m not prepared. I’m nervous and worried. Never felt this way for a long time already. But I believe that with God, I will be able to get through this season. I’m going to do well!

In the midst of saving . So many things I want to get. Hopefully I will be able to get it by the end of this year. But my focus is on a guitar. Can’t believe I’m saving so much to get myself a guitar. I think I will never ever spend so much on myself! But I totally love the guitar I laid my hand on the other day. And I really want it. My aim is to get it by the end of October.

Haven’t been feeling well lately. Physically very tired even though I haven’t been doing much. Time to get healthy and fit.

 

Sugar Rush.

 

It’s officially holidays. Actually, not really. It more of study break cause UT3 is in 3 weeks time. And this round, I’ve got to do well.

The past week has been very stretching for me. But everything was worth it when Chui Laam was happy when the CG celebrated her birthday yesterday after CGM. That gives me a sense of fulfillment.

Time flies, people come and go. And ultimately, you’ll know those who are true. They are not just there with you when there is something in common or just in good times. But they are there in the lowest times. They give you that special assurance that they are always there even when there’s silence. That’s a friend that will stay through your life. I’m glad I found such friends.

The Greatest Is LOVE.

It was a great weekend.

City Harvest Church’s 21st anniversary.

These are the 2 most amazing people I know. They truly are my hero. I don’t know where I would be without the both of them and the church.

It really breaks my heart to see the both of them so tired, losing weight and so burdened.

This weekend was really a demonstration of what Love is all about.

City Harvest Church is where I found my home and family.

Thank you Pastor Kong and Sun for all your sacrifices for the church. Thank you for you love. I love you both too!

Move Along.

It has been quite an adventure lately, I don’t think that the adventure has ended also.

Picked up many life lessons lately as the days and weeks passes by.

One of which is that Love is all about giving without expecting anything in return. So many times when we give, we always have a motive of receiving something from that person. It may not come as a material, it can come in many other different forms. But ultimately, we give because we love.

I’m enjoying my latest toy so far. I was told that Blackberry connects people, I thought that was Nokia. But it’s true. Blackberry really makes people closer! Funny, but true. And ever since i got mine, I can’t seem to stop using it. Twitter, Messenger and all the different applications. Even though it is definitely not as many as Apple, but it is enough to get me hooked! Honestly, I personally feel that Blackberry and iTouch is the best combination someone should have. I am blessed to be one of such people.

It is funny how time flies. I was fellowshipping with my members after service one Sunday. Oh, Chui Laam and I found joy and pride to be 21 this year. During service Pastor Zhuang declared that we were born in a divine year, the same year as City Harvest Church. Even though I have always know that the church and I are of the same age, I never thought of this. And now, I can proudly say that I’m turning 21 soon! As I was saying, my members were sharing their age and all. I realised that they are so young. Fifteen to seventeen years old. I was fifteen when I cam to church. That was so long ago!

I’m really looking forward to my holidays. I really need a break from school. 3 more weeks to go and I can have my long awaited rest.

My White Gadget.

Do you like my new toy? Cause I love it! (:

Not In Reality?

I recently watched a movie called She’s Out Of My League. Well, I guess it’s something like Beauty and the Beast. Quite a nice show; funny.

Wonder if this happens in real life.

Thanks For The Memories.

A few months ago, I met an amazing group of people. Never thought that they would mean so much to me. I learnt a lot from them. Now, I just wish that we could go through all the tough times together again. Times which we struggle to count during physical training, times of shouting the timings, the”fragrant” of all the sweat, all the blue blacks and bumps, all the ‘5,6,7,8’, all the ‘1,2 down up’. Those were the days. Don’t you just wish that such days will never end? That’s what I’m feeling now. I wish Parade of Schools never ended.

Last Sunday, we had our appreciation dinner at Bugis. Though it was the end of something, but I believe it was also a beginning of something.

The 3 artist!

It has been a long time since I last caught a movie. Last night, watched The Karate Kid together with Michelle, Gwendelyn and Yunting. I must say that the show was not what i expected. It’s a 5 stars for me!

During the movie, I really caught something, you can say revelation. Jackie Chan’s character said something like this,”It’s one thing to do nothing, but a whole other thing to be still.” And I suddenly thought of what the Bible says,”Be still, and know I am God.” And I’ve always wondered what being still means in this verse. Now I know that when we go through storms in life. It doesn’t mean that we trust God and do nothing. Instead, through the storms, we fix our eyes; our focus on God. Faith is not passive, but active. And I want to be a “Karate kid” in the kingdom of God. Times when we’re knocked down, we can choose to get back up. Times when people say that we can’t do it, but God says that we can!

The Way That I Like It, Hot!

5 days of Asia Conference was amazing! I wish it could repeat itself again.

And now, I miss trainings. Feels weird to be at home all the time now. Weird that my shoulder isn’t hurting, weird that I’m not doing crunches before i sleep every night now. Miss those days. Looks like I will be putting on weight from now. I’ve been eating MacDonald’s for 4 days already! Feasting already!

 

 

Doesn’t really feel like holidays since I’ve got lots of assignments waiting for me to start on. And I’m only left with 2 weeks to complete them.

A Bigger Me On The Inside.

These past 2 months or so have been very challenging, in a good way of course. My capacity is being stretched so much. But through this period, I find God’s strength even more present in my life. I wouldn’t be able to make it through without Him.

The Bible says that the joy of the Lord is my strength. And I begin to meditate on this. We so often use this but I really wanted to know what it means. And as I was praying, I had a revelation. This strength only comes when we are happy serving God. Many times people serve and serve and end up getting burned out or worn out. That’s because they don’t enjoy doing what they do for God. In every commitment, if there is no happiness, then it is just plain duty and routine. And eventually, it will not be able to achieve the intended purpose. When I got this revelation, I began to find joy in the things I do for God. Even though it may be tough and overwhelming at times. But the thought of God smiling over me makes me want to do even more for Him. And in whatever I do, I don’t want to work so hard that I forget the ultimate purpose of it.

Next week is Asia Conference and I am so excited! But beyond the excitement, I want to have a touch from God. Cause I know excitement won’t last, especially when I am tired. But spiritual hungry will last. Just like in real life, no matter how tired you are, you can feel hungry. In this Asia Conference, I believe that greater breakthroughs are coming and I want to be ready for them!

Looking forward to my 2 weeks school break. Time to recharge again. Going to make these 2 weeks of break a fruitful one.

Nothing But Trouble.

April has not been a very fantastic month of me. So many things happened and I don’t even know where to begin. In any case, it just wasn’t a good month at all.

For the first time, I lost my handphone! I realized it only during worship in prayer meeting on Sunday. Honestly, I wanted to cry but too many people. So i held back. I guess, there are things inside that really means a lot to me that makes my phone very precious. But it’s gone now. And since then, I haven’t been using a phone. Feels weird.

Bruises are increasing after each POS practice. And I think i sprain my wrist. It hurts like crazy now. It’s 4 weeks away to Asia Conference. I’m excited and nervous at the same time. I need to get my abs or least get my stomach flattened by then. I don’t want my fats to be running everywhere also. Got to be really discipline in doing my crunches everyday.

For the past 2 days, I haven’t had a proper meal. Ate only a hotdog bun, 5 fishballs and a small packet of chips in 2 days! So unlike me! Just totally lost my appetite and craving. Not me right? I guess, it’s also a good chance for me to lose some weight!

Physically, I’m really tired. But I’m hopeful that May is going to be a better month for me!

“God, I pray that Mompy will get me a Blackberry 9000 tonight!”

Plastic Surgery For The Best?

The news is out! One of my favorite models, Yoanna House went for a plastic surgery. Personally, I like how she looked before. But well, she still looks great!

If I have the money, I think I will want to fix my nose! Haha.

What is your stand on plastic surgery?

My Heart Goes Bang Bang Boom.

It has been a challenging year so far. But God is good!

Well, it’s back to school for me last Friday. First lesson and i was already struggling. Maybe it’s because I’m doing something that i don’t enjoy. But I’m trying to like it. Hmm.. You can’t actually try to like something right? So, I’m just trying to do my best in what I am doing. And I don’t believe that I cannot do well. Especially when it comes to programming and Java!

It has also been a very tiring past month, physically tiring, due to all the POS trainings. Never thought I would be doing this again. I am enjoying myself. Muscles are developing. Don’t mess with me! Loving each training! Well, I never thought that I would be someone who will be in cheerleading. But now that I am, I love it. But I doubt I will join my school’s team. But if there is a chance, I would love to be a part of it. I never thought that bring up a stunt can be so tough. It looks easy, but it’s not.

R&R

After so many years, I finally took a short trip up to Phuket. Left on Wednesday night and came back on Sunday morning. It was tiring but had a great experience there.

This is my breakfast on the first morning! I love hotel breakfast! Well, I was too lazy to take the photos for the rest of my meals after this breakfast. Oops!

Went to the highest point in the city and managed to capture some pictures.

I’m so glad to be back in Singapore!

So Long.

It has been quite awhile since I last blogged. Have been rather lazy. But anyway, I caught Kidnapper today after work. Seriously, I did not expect it to be this good. However, because I have a very weak heart, I was covering my eyes and ears most of the time. Can’t stand the sight of violence. I must say that Christopher Lee can act! He was simply brilliant in this movie. He portrayed the character and each emotion so clearly and I felt engaged. So, bravo!

I’ll be flying off to Phuket tomorrow night. Can’t wait to come back for Easter!

My holidays are passing so quickly, can time slow down please??

Looking at my expenses in my iTouch this month, I realised I spent a lot! But this also made me see how God has blessed me! I am BLESSED!

My Second Home, Arise & Build.

The big news has be spoken. The great news that all of us has been waiting to hear for the past 4 years. And last weekend, we all heard it. Our building is at Suntec!

Suntec has got to get ready! City Harvest is coming to break the walls down in 12 months time!’t

I can’t wait to give into God’s kingdom! Believing for even greater breakthroughs during this season of giving and sacrificing!

Week Of Morning Prayer & Bad Gastric Flu.

This past week was an amazing week of morning prayer. I’m so glad that i am able to make it for the first round for this year. I wasn’t able to attend the previous few because i had to go to school. What can I say, waking up early to pray is so much better than waking up for school! Oops!

Throughout this whole week of morning prayer, it really made me think about certain things. Like being thankful and counting my blessings. Personally, I feel that these are so important in life and growing. So many times we take things around us for granted. Example, the air that we breathe, our parents, our education and even the country we live in. I am so blessed that I have parents that love me and provide for me every day, living in a country that is safe. There is so many things that I am thankful for when i begin to count my blessings. The little things and the big things. Even things that many times I don’t take them into consideration every day. I am blessed!

Gastric flue hit me on during the start of the week. My stomach hurts all the time. When I eat, it hurts. When I don’t eat, it also hurts. But Chuilaam passed me a medicine yesterday that I feel that it really effective. Now, my stomach is back to normal!

School’s Out, Welcome Vacation!

Finally, the school holidays are here. I’m through my first week of holidays now. I’m so happy! UT is over, Year 1 is over! I’m really thankful that for both Semesters, I am in a class where I have friends who are motivated. It really encourages me a lot. They make learning everyday so much fun!

Chinese New Year! It felt so weird this year. Was doing visitations on the first day. Was at the last house for the day and I wasn’t feeling the festive mood. And I realized that I never ate a single Bak Kua that day. So I was telling my cousin who was beside me,” I know why I got no feel already! No Bak Kua!!” And in 2 seconds, 2 plates of Bak Kua started marching towards me. My eyes were glowing! Haha. That made so happy! Now, Poppy has also brought home some Bak Kua for me! But on top of all the yummy snacks and the great feasts, my relationship between my family and relatives grew stronger. (:

After a long month, I finally caught a movie today with Chui Laam, 14 Blades. Half the time I was reading the subtitles! But all in all, it was a great show! Catch it!

A Time For Everything.

I guess in life, we go through different seasons. A time to do this, a time to do that. And sometimes, there is just no time at all.

A time to mug

A time to slack

A time to work

A time to rest

A time of giving

A time of receiving

A time of sowing

A time for reaping

A time to step out

A time to withdraw

I’m now in my time of mugging. Exams are packed this week till Friday. And after that would be a short period of resting for me. Year 1 of poly life is over. Got to prepare myself for the challenges in Year 2.

Slam.

It was a pretty long week. School school and more school. UT3 is starting next Saturday. UT2 grades were not very fantastic to me. I have got to really work hard.

After a long week, I’m finally home hoping to start study later tonight.

It was a long Saturday for me yesterday. Woke up early to collect my passport with my parents. When we reached the place. It was flooded with people. But we made appointment so it  gave us the advantage in a way. So, we went to take our queue number. We headed to the waiting area and saw the queue board. It was only at 2823 whereas my number is 2988! Big difference! So in my mind i was thinking that i am really going to be sitting there the entire day! But within 15 minutes, i took my passport and was out of the place. Thank God we made appointment.

Went shopping after that. Bought a lot of stuff. Well, to me it’s a lot considering that i only can buy 1 item whenever i go out with my parents. But yesterday, Mompy spent over a $100 on me. Thank you, Mompy!

After shopping, went to meet Chui Laam and Ivan and headed to Hwa Chong Institue for Jeremy’s orchestra concert. He is talented!

 

And now, after a long week, i am finally home!

(:

Here I Am Still Holding On.

It hasn’t been exactly been a good month for me. Many down periods, yet also many up moments. But God has been good.

The school holidays are drawing nearer for me. Which also means that UT3 is also coming! Time to start revising on my work.

I can’t wait for next month to come! Why? Don’t tell you. It’s a secret! Haha.

2010 is going to be awesome!

Church has finally got our land after so many years. Believing for greater breakthroughs this year!

(:

So Long.

I finally got back my laptop today. But everything is gone. If you are wondering what happened to it, let me share with you. It was smashed by my brother. And everything couldn’t work. ): Second day of school and I didn’t have a laptop to use. And worse still, it was my test season.

But now, I’m wondering how to transfer my things inside my iTouch to iTunes. An idea??

A Foot Forward To 2010.

A year has just gone by again. A new chapter has just begun. Last night, I was writing some of the goals i want to achieve by the end of this year. Most of them are very challenging but attainable. I can't wait to embark on 2010. This year will be my best year yet.

School has started. Now, I'm sitting in class waiting for lessons to begin. Didn't have a good sleep last night. I only managed to fall asleep at around 4am. So, technically, I only slept for 1 hour and 15 minutes. Naturally, I'm feeling tired now. I've got to get through today! UT is going to continue starting from tomorrow. I've got to really work hard for the rest of my UTs!

 

PS: Thank you for giving me such a wonderful morning! (: You're my Sunshine after the rain.