I was just reading my Bible. And i came across this few verses. Phil 3:12-14 "Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me. Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." When I read these few verses, i told God that i don't want to hold on to my past regrets. I will always remember one thing that Charmaine told me and that is i can't change my past, but I can change my now. And these verses reminded me not to look back. In some shows that we've watched, especially those which involves a race, usually when the runner turns to look back on how far apart is from his competitors, he will fall and eventually loses the race. He could have won the prize he deserved to achieve. I want to be a runner pressing on to my prize. A runner would face muscle cramps or injury during his training or even fall in a race. But it's not the result that matters but the attitude throughout the race which matters. I never want to give up even when i fall. I want to press on toward the prize that is set before me.
It has been a tough week. Mentally and emotionally drained. But thank God for His Word. It truely brings enouragement and comfort. Anyway, i worked 2 days this week. So pathetic. There's a new full-timer now. So i won't be able to work as much as i used to. But i guess i could take a short break and re-focus on other areas of my life, like my studies!! And I think i'll go searching for another job soon. Maybe in TOPSHOP? Don't really want to do sales anymore actually. Very tiring. Haha. And when i'm tired, i can't work well. I can't even remember what i did the past few days. Let me recall... Oh! On Thursday, i went to my grandmother's house. And she forced money into my hands. My grandfather almost did the same thing but i ran away. Don't want to take money from them as they're not working already. Feel so bad whenever they give me money. So had dinner there as well. The food was GOOD! Anyway, I was so bored after dinner, so i left after awhile. Came back to Tampines to check what's the prob;em with my EZ Link card and realised it has already expired. I was too lazy to queue to get my refund so i just bought a new adult card. The design so "orh-bit". Want to get a sticker and paste over it. After that, went to meet Weizhi. Had a great time. Yongle joined us later in the night. Great guys! Reached home at 1am plus. And then did my things and realised it was already 4 in the morning. I quickly went to bed cause my parents were already awakening. Haha. Got up pretty early today. Went to give BS in the afternoon and then walked around with Angel and Leann. Met Jo after that too. Went down to Marina Square and we bumped into our Tampines buddy, Jasmine! Had dinner with Hexing too. Got a call from Yufen and then Jo and me flew back to Tampines when we weren't even in Marina Square for an hour!! Solid, right? Celebrated Weiren's birthday. Went Starbucks with Jo after Yufen and Weiren went back. Wallet got a BIG hole now. Hole will be closed when my pay comes in. And so, here i am now.
Got to go rest now before my parents wake up. I can already hear my dad outside!!
