All I Want For Christmas Is....

Well, i just decided to blog about what i would want for Christmas.

An iPod Touch

8GB:$388.00 16GB:$ 498.00 32GB:$ 648.00

That's all i can think of for now. And the other one... Hmmm... Not for you to know.. Santa.. Jut bring me the iPod Touch and you can save on the other one..

Nothing More But A Substitute.

The Truth Flashed Before My Eyes
Even When I Tried To Deny
Right From The Beginning
I Knew I Was Taking A Risk
Putting My Heart On The Line
Now I Can See That I Was Blind
I Thought That This Time It Would Be Different
And I Wouldn’t Get Hurt
But Of Everyone
This Is The Worst
I Gave Everything Within My Means
Now I’m Left With Nothing
I Thought You Were True
But Now After All This While
I’m Nothing More But A Substitute

Tell Me I’m Wrong
Cause It’ll Hurt For Very Long
You Took Me As A Fool
And I Just Played Along
I Laid On My Bed Crying Last Night
Trying To Keep All My Hurts Inside
Lying To Myself That That’s Not Who You Are
My Heart Wants To Let Go
But Something In My Mind Keeps Saying No
I Can’t Go On Like This
Won’t You Please Set Me Free
But Now It’s Too Late
I’ll Live Ever Resigned To My Fate
Since After All This While
I’m Nothing More But A Substitute

Lost of words..

Last Minute.

Decided to just drop a post tonight before i sleep.
Reached home at 1 plus just now. It was a pretty long but fulfilling day. Had 'My Hope' today. Then headed down for service. After that, Yufen and i went to find Ansel at his workplace at Bukit Timah. Hanged around for about 2 hours. Ate, drink and played. Man.. it was a pretty reasonable price. $30.80 for 2 hours, a basket of chips, 2 root beer float, 5 wings, 5 drumlets, a basket of wages, and a bowl of soup. Not a bad place to chill out. By the time i reached home, i was really tired. But now i'm quite awake. Haha.. But i've got less than 4 hours of sleep before i get ready for service!!
BYE!

"Sleep-Through".

Wow! I finally got my breakthrough in the area of my sleep. Well, you may think that i don't need because I've been sleeping a lot. But really, I've been struggling to fall asleep for the past few months. I often toss and turn on the bed for 2 long hours before i fall asleep.

So what changed?

I was on the phone with Yufen on Wednesday night and she shared with me about this man who write letters to God and communicates with God through writing. I wanted that experience to. I want to have a conversation with God to. If it can happen for him, it can also happen to me. So that very night, instead of writing to God, i laid on my bed and chatted with God. It may sound crazy. But it isn't. As i began to talk, i realised that i started to cry as well. Cause God replied. And soon, i found myself talking more and more. And i remembered clearly that i said to God that i want to have a good rest and i don't want to struggle to fall asleep anymore. I believe that God is my rest and i wanted so badly to experience Him in that area of my life. When i opened my eyes, it was already morning. And the conversation i had with God was still in my head. Again, last night i did the same thing, i laid on my bed and chatted with God. And since, i had no problem falling asleep. I can't wait to chat with God again later. It hasn't just me bring my shopping list to Him. I'm so happy that God replied. I enjoy every moment talking to Him. You should try too!

Today has been fantastic! Went to meet Cheryl for lunch. We decided to go Pasta Mania to eat. And she blessed me! After than, we went Organic Cafe to eat Yogurt, and again, she blessed me! Thank you, Cheryl. And guess what, she bought me an eyeshadow from Japan too! Thank you so much again Cheryl!! After that, we met some of the members and headed down to Jurong West for EMERGE! It was awesome! After the event, we didn't take the Church bus because we wanted to fellowship. Went Best 2 to eat. Sat for too long. Missed the last train and took bus to Yufen's house. The bus apparently took 10 years on the road and i missed my only bus back home!! I was determined to walk home actually, but took a cab instead. So now, I'm home! Tomorrow is going to be a fantastic day!

Hungry & Cold.

I've never felt so cold and hungry before. I'm very very hungry now. And I'm freezing!!
It hasn't been a good evening today. My handphone bill came and it's $83.33. When my mum found out, she blasted at me and now i have to settle it. Because of that, i had no dinner. If you've been to my house, there's nothing for me to eat except ice. So for the whole day, i only had a slice of pandan cake. I laid on my table in the evening with tears rushing down my face.. Was really troubled by it, actually, i still am. But well, everything's going to be just fine..
Bye now..

Stuck.

Tell me how do I forget you

When you're all i can ever think of

Don't want to say goodbye

Cause I'll turn around and cry

Give me a reason to stop

Show me a sign that I'm wrong

If you really care

Then never let go of me tonight

You've made my heart so confused

Who am i to you

If all that I've given isn't enough

Then could you tell me what's in your heart

If you know that this is for you

Would you say that you love me too

I'm not being emo here. So don't worry. Haha. Anyway, any nice movies to recommend? I'm getting kind of bored now.. I realised that I've been eating a lot. Just now, i went to buy my dinner. Ordered mixed rice add rice. And it still wasn't enough. So i went down to buy Ice Kachang. And I'm still hungry. Now eating Skittles. I'm so going to put on more weight. Mummy promised me that she'll bring me out to buy some stuff that i want next week since i can't go KL with her. Yay! There are so many things on my wish list.. Anybody want to be my Santa Claus? Haha..

Robert Pattinson. Great Eye Candy.

Spend the whole day today at home. Kind of boring actually. Did nothing but lay on my bed.

Mummy ordered pizzas today for dinner. And i ate 3 slices and 2 drumlets. After eating, i was still feeling very hungry. And while eating, i decided to catch a movie. Watched Twilight online. Oopsy!

Robert Pattinson is so HOT!

Feeling rather bored now.. Sigh.. Oh well, i think I'm going to go catch another show later.

Went for a very late dinner with Yufen on Saturday night after service. We headed down to City Hall after service and to look for some stuff. And by the time we wanted to eat, it was already 10pm! There wasn't anything to eat at Marina Square by then except MacDonald's which we ate the day before. Even though i was craving for MacDonald's, something slipped out of my mouth. I actually suggested to go to Yufen's house area to eat. And of course, Yufen was more than happy. Haha. As usual, we went to eat Kuay Chap. Love it!! And while walking over, i just realised that i did nothing this year. So sad! I wasted another year.. Now, I'm determined to make 2009 fulfilling. I'm still hitting myself in the head though. Well, 2009 is going to be awesome!

To Joanne: 6 more weeks and you'll be back! wOoOoOo!!

Rain Down On Me.

I wanted your love

But I got uncertainty

I tried so hard to understand you

All the good it did me

Now the places that we knew

Remind of how we were

Everything is just the same

But all I feel is hurt

And do you ever think of me

And how we used to be

It has been raining lately. I'm stuck at home with a few monsters. As usual, home is like a childcare centre. Can't do much when my brother bring home his friends. Thank goodness i didn't clean the house when i woke up. If not it'll be back to square one again.

I'm going to do some visitations tonight. So hopefully they're at home.

Met Cheryl earlier to have dinner. I was so hungry! After that we went to walk around. Headed over to Suntec Carefour to buy some snacks and i realised that every part of Carefour we were at, these 3 boys were there! Freaky! After that there tried talking to us. But we ignored and walked over to pay for our stuff. What happened next? Oh.. After that, had a message from Yufen to go up to office. So we went up and passed her a bottle of drink and then the both of us headed down. And again, we saw those guys! My goodness. It was getting very scary. And you should have seen the reaction of Cheryl. It was so so funny! She started to pull me. They spotted us and we quickly ran into Tower 4, ran back into Tower 3, down the escalator and to the toilet cause i was in need of it. We then went back to the first level, up the escalator to go to Mini Toons. On the escalator, we scanned though the entire first level and they were no where in sight. What a relief! So we happily went into Mini Toons to get our gummies. After that, when we came out of the store, they were outside! Oh my goodness!! We quickly went into the most crowded store, SASA. Moments after we were inside, everybody left. So weird. After that, when we thought we were save to leave, the guys were outside again! We quickly went down the escalator and into the VCD/DVD shop. We thought that there was no way they can spot us here. Lo and behold, one guy suddenly popped beside me and asked whether they can befriend us. So i replied,"No, sorry." And Cheryl told him off,"Can you guys stops following us? It's very annoying. Just piss off!" And we walked away. Cheryl was fierce! Feel so bad for them. Takes a lot of courage (leh!). Haha. But feel so free after that. Don't have to play hide and seek anymore. After that, caught the movie Quarantine with Yufen, Cheryl and Ah Gong. Scary show. I was already squatting on the chair. Cheryl was just screaming away. Yufen.. Nothing to say. She was still eating her sweets during the scariest part. She practically had no reaction. Haha!! My heart just became weaker last night.

Was suppose to do some visitations tonight. But i just called the kids and they won't be at home. So, i can get to stay at home today. Sad to say but i haven't seen or spoken to my parents for 3 days already because I've been out. So today, i can stay at home and spend time with them. And, i can also save money. I just realised that I'm left with $4 in my bank. I need a breakthrough. I'm coming to my last few days of my fast. It's has been really tough the past week. I know that a greater breakthrough is here. After the last time i fasted, i truly believe in the power of prayer and fasting. More than that, i want to depend on God even more. Through this period, God's grace and strength is even more evident towards me. Thank You, Jesus!

Headache.

When I close my eyes, and you're not there

I feel this emptiness inside - do you care?

If you have to go I'll understand

But the pain's so hard to take when we're apart

You'll never see me cry - it's locked away

But there's this feeling deep within me wants to stay

And if you were here would things be right

I need to find my way alone to win this fight

Yes, it's me at this hour. I've been waking up with very bad headaches lately. And today, i found myself tossing and turning on my bed for an hour until i decided to surrender and on the computer. I'm feeling really sleepy but somehow just can't find a comfortable position to fall back to sleep. But, i know i be in bed again in no time. It's been such a long time since i last woke up this early, during the weekdays. I have a very bad habit of sleeping really late (3am) and waking up really late (3pm sometimes) also. I feel very selfish. People get the most 8 hours of sleep while i get 12 hours. I suppose I'll sleep on behalf of those who lacks of sleep. Haha! God gives His beloved sleep. Wah, flaky.. Haha. Okay, i've got the feel of sleeping again.

To my dearest Joanne: Can't wait for you to come back..! WoOoOoOoTt..! Missing you. :)

Here And Now.

"Here And Now"

Time is running out on you and me

Cos nothing's what it used to be

I guess I'm the only one to blame

But I promise you to make it right

Forget all the sorrows you bear within tonight

Believe in me when I say

Here and now I wanna be the one for you

In everything you want me to

Cos I couldn't live if we're apart

Say there is something I can do

If I can make it up to you

For every time I let you down

And I promise you to make it right

Forget all the sorrows you bear within tonight

Believe in me when I say

Here and now I wanna be the one for you

In everything you want me to

Cos I couldn't live if we're apart

Here and now lets tear down the walls together

It's better late than never

I know that we could find a way here and now

I'll be there for you

Here and now I wanna be the one for you

In everything you want me to

Cos I couldn't live if we're apart

Here and now I wanna fall in love again

And try to be the best I can

So give me a chance to win your heart

How Much Do I Mean To You?

I wonder if tomorrow would be the same for us

After all this time, I've grown to love you

Gave you my very best

Hopefully to pass the test

Have I made a fool of myself

By throwing my heart to you

If things change when the clock strikes twelve

And we're no longer the way we were

Then I know that I am nothing but a spare tire all this while

I just need to be reassured

So when i helplessly crawl back to you

Tell me again the words I long to hear

I want you to know this

"Ich Liebe Dich"