My heart shattered when i saw my results today. Though i've already expected it, i just didn't want it to come true. Oh well. There's nothing i can do. I sat in the hall thinking of what i've been doing this half a year and realised that's the result i should get anyway. Whole time out doing nothing. If not then i'd be sleeping. No wonder i got a F9. Cousins got back their results as well. I can't be more pressurized. Sigh. They did better of course. My parents don't even know that i'm taking back my result. Even if they ask now, i wouldn't know how i'm going to answer them. I feel like a real failure. People say "it's okay" but it's not, "retake retake" but i on't have that much time. Guess all i can do now is to 'chiong' for the rest. I promised SUN that i'll study hard. And i will. I guess i won't listen to anyone else but God and her. And maybe a few others as well. Whenever i feel discourage, i always read SUN's replies. It never fails to encourage and motivate me again. I want to eat lots of ice cream!! But for now, my eyes are very pain.
