Someone special to me shared with me something. And this was a reminder to me. She said that whenever she has to put away things or the people she loves but yet she knows that they are not good for her, she reminds herself of eternity because our lives here are temporary. She continued by saying that God will never short-change us when we choose to put Him first in our lives.
It broke my heart in a good way(if there's such a thing). It reminded me to set my priorities right again. But something struck me. I know now there are certain things that i have to let go so that my walk with God can progress. She told me that it will definitely hurt and i know cause i'm already feeling it. And it takes faith to let go and trust God. Whenever i feel that my faith in Him is running low, i always think of all the things He has done for me. And really, giving up everything for Him is worth it. He has given me His best. And i want to give Him mind. I remember that i once made a prayer that i want to offer God a living sacrifice, not a dead one. And my life would be the best sacrifice.
God has been good and gracious. And i really thank Him for not giving up on me. It has been really tiring lately. But His strength has been evident. Lately, my weakness has been surfacing and it made me see the "devil" in me. But knowing all these, it made me rely on the Holy Spirit even more. Because of how imperfect i am, i need Him so much more. And the need to depend on the Holy Spirit is increasing.
I live for You and not for me anymore.