You've Become A Part Of Me.

 

Well, once again today, I stayed at home. Didn't feel like going out cause i don't want to spend money. Have been really tight lately.. Looks like I'll be spending more time at home. I suppose this is a good thing.

 

Sigh, I have been feeling this way lately:

How can i sing when my words have run dry
How can I smile with the tear in my eye
Summer's so lost when it's raining in June
That's how it feels when I'm missing you

 

I guess this has helped me expressed a lot. But towards who, I won't say. Ha! Anyway, heard something from someone about that person's situation and my heart skipped a beat. Honestly, feeling worried and helpless now. But well. Things have changed and.. Sigh.

 

To "YOU": Te echo de menos.

 

I've been sleeping rather late this these few weeks. Not because i can't sleep but because I've been watching shows online. Haha. Have been watching the Tyra Banks show and America's Next Top Model Cycle 2. Didn't catch that season so decided to do so. And I'm blown away and inspired. These girls/models show me that dreams can come true but it takes hard work and of course making full use of every opportunity. For me, I've let many opportunities slipped by and i regret. But I've learn to cherish every opportunity and sometimes, you just have to create your opportunities. I'm excited about this year. And i can't wait to do greater things.

Dreams And Rest.

Stayed at home the whole day today. I actually woke up quite early. But not early enough for Mompy to bring me out shopping. I can't believe it! I wake up at 9am and find my Mum and Dad already out. Surprisingly, i did not take any afternoon nap even though i only slept for 6 hours. Well, to me, 6 hours of sleep is not enough. I need at least 10 hours. Haha! I'm so proud of myself! I'm still awake! I spent the whole day watching shows on YouTube. Kept laughing. Basically, i just rested the entire day. Don't always think that I'm resting everyday, cause i don't, okay..

Looking back, back in time
When you were there by my side
Suddenly, it all changed
You were not here, and it feels so strange.
Now I gotta stop myself from going crazy
I just gotta figure out how to let go
But hey,
With or without you,
I carry on...
With or without you,
I stay all night
I'm thinking about you
Everytime that I close my eyes
With or without you,
I'm moving on

 

Alright, I'm going to continue watching my shows. Never enjoyed staying at home more. (:

Straight From The Heart.

It was a fast Chinese New Year. Even though during the visitations it felt as if i was never ending, Finally, for me, no more visitings.. Well, both good and bad. It really didn't felt like Chinese New Year for me. Except when i was awaken by the lion dance troop doing their thing 1 storey below my apartment at 9am. It was so LOUD! And i haven't woken up from my sleep. (Argh!) But anyway, i was so tired that i fell back to sleep. On the second day, Poppy said i could slack on my dressing. Don't have to wear so "glam". Thank goodness i took his advice. If not i would have suffered the entire evening. Haha. I spent most of the time sitting on the couch playing my DS. Cousins asked me to gamble with them but, nah! Don't want to be a bad steward of my finances. That's why i ended up playing Metal Slug on my DS. Haha. And i think I'm getting really good at it! Anyway, Mompy took leave for the rest of the week. Hopefully she'll bring me go shopping again, using her money. Hee!

 

I would take the stars
Out of the sky for you
Stop the rain from falling
If you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Your wish is my command
I could move a mountain when
Your hand is in my hand
Words cannot express
How much you mean to me
There must be some other way
To make you see
If it takes my heart and soul
You know I'd pay the price
Everything that I possess
I'd gladly sacrifice

Chinese New Year Service.

Had Chinese New Year service today.. Well, once again, don't seem to have the Chinese New Year "feel". But anyway, had a wonderful service. I was blown away. Wish that i studied my Chinese better. In any case, i was so drawn by the Chinese history that Pastor preached about. (WOW!)

 

 

Anyway, after service, the Cell Group went to White Sands for dinner. I was really hungry. But there wasn't anything that i was craving for. Oh well.. So now that i am at home, as usual, my mouth gets really "itchy". So i ate again. Ate 2 packets of Mamee Monster and then Honey Stars and Coco Crunch with milk. And, still, my mouth still wants more! But I've got to control if not, I'll look 20 pounds heavier after the Chinese New Year season. And this is a season of eating and eating and eating. Everywhere you go, you eat!I've got to start exercising already. Help!

Discomfort.

Yes, i'm still awake at this hour. It hasn't been pleasant week. Felt sick almost everyday. And i couldn't get to sleep because my stomach was upside. I woke up at 4am to throw up. And now i still feel really uncomfortable when i lie down. And in an hour's time, i need to get ready to go for service. Going to go take a short 1 hour nap soon. No, now.

Faithful And True.

Well, 2008 wasn't very fantastic for me. And i didn't exactly started 2009 very well. But God has been faithful. God back my results yesterday. It isn't great but I'm all right with it, considering that i was on my own. My parents are happy about it, especially Poppy. I'm glad that he's happy. Cause he has always been worried about me and my studies. And for once, i really wanted to make him happy. Thank God he's easy to please. If not I'll break his heart again. :)

Things at home has been a roller coaster ride. Constantly my Poppy and Tigs shouting. Sigh. Like me when i was younger. Just that it was Mompy and me. Now the other way round. I pray things will get better. And I'm glad that my brother is now trying to quit smoking.. Don't know whether real or not. Anyway, i just can't wait to go shopping this Saturday with my family!

And.... JOANNE will be coming back next week!!!!! Finally!! Haha. My dearest lightning rod. Hee!

Oh, and see, i woke up early again today! Not bad right? I'm trying to wake up early. Raymond said that i sleep a lot and only limit me to sleep 9 hours everyday. Why?! Sleep is one of God's best creation! Haha. (Self-deception) But one bad thing is that i still always sleep pretty late. Haha. But I've got no problem falling asleep. Because i still do chat with God on my bed. Not that He is boring. But I want my Heavenly Poppy to put me to sleep. I'm like an overgrown baby! *tsk* Don't think I'll be growing up so fast. Cause I'm always His little girl..

As I grow, I need your thoughts to guide me. I feel your love inside like vertigo. In your arms, you see the child within me. Embrace me then release me when I'm ready to let go.

Quick & Fresh.

It has been a long day today. Well, basically because i only slept for 4 hours because i waited for my brother to come home last night to give him a birthday surprise. Well, i managed to stay up until he came home. Service was again awesome! Lot's of revelation.. Still digesting everything. And the thing that made me even happier was a bottle of Trolli, Cola flavour, given by the One-And-Only, GERRY! Thank you so so much! I'm really touched. You never fail to encourage me whenever i chat with you online. Thank you once again! :)

Morning Light.

I've been waking up at 7.40am ever since the year started. It's a big miracle itself because I usually do not wake up at that time. However, since my brother has to wake up t go to school, i wake up the same time as him to do housework. However, one not so good thing is that i always fall back to sleep at around 1pm. Cannot take it! Too tired already. Anyway, still, I'm working on it. So, hopefully, later I will not fall back to sleep. I'll be really tempted to since the weather today seems kind of good.

I recently learnt something. I just started reading a book Pastor Yonggi Cho. And this popped out to me. A meaning of grace is "favor", good will given out of unconditional, overflowing love with no expectation of reward or payment. Well, this line explains everything very clearly. Many times, we often "love" and expect something in return. Or even set our expectations to high. And, when our expectations are not met, we get disappointed, upset or even rejected.

Well, i really can't think of anything else now. Feeling kind of sleepy now already actually. How?!

A Thousand Missed Calls To Your Heart. (By Me)

When I Call, Will You Answer The Phone?
When I Turn Away, Will You Call My Name?
When We Walk Our Separate Ways, Will You Turn Around?
Cos I've Made A Thousand Missed Calls To You Heart

If The Sun Don't Shine, Will You Still Smile At Me?
If The Clouds Shed No Tear, Will You Still Shelter Me?
If The Earth Stood Still, Will You Still Be By My Side?
Cos I've Made A Thousand Missed Calls To Your Heart

Should Ever I'm Lost Of Words, Will You Still Sing To Me?
Should Ever The Music Stops Playing, Will You Still Dance With Me?
Should Ever I Lose My Beat, Will You'll Bring Me Back To The Rhythm?
Cos I've Made A Thousand Calls To Your Heart

Welcoming 2009.

Didn't had the feel for countdown.. Not sure why.. But, anyway, went to Yufen's house. Cooked, potato wedges and nuggets. Also, we ate prawn noodles. Yummy!!

Left Yufen's house at around 2am. Then i realised Wen Bin was left alone at Clark Quay. So in the end i went down to meet him (so nice, right?). It was fun. We walked from Suntec to Esplanade, then to Fullerton Hotel, then to Swiss Hotel to meet Ronald, Hexing, Cheryl and Samuel. We were then chased out of Swiss Hotel. So, we walked to SMU. Sat there and played Bridge. Soon, time to take the first train back home.

I was actually still very awake, until i reached home. I fell flat on my bed. Woke up at 2pm, had lunch and fell back to sleep until 6pm. Haha. Sleep alot!! Love it!

It's a new year. Doesn't feel like it though. Oh well.. Happy New Year!!