Just Like The First Time Again.

Last night, i had lots of trouble trying to get myself to sleep. Each time i laid down, tears flow like crazy. It's been such a long time since i last cried this way. I felt my heart split in two last night. Things has changed and i guess i'm still trying to get used to it. But something hurt me deeper. Well, i guess i have to move on. "It's scary to know that you're not there when i needed you."

I woke up today with my eyes really swollen. I only managed to get to sleep at 4am. Although i feel much better than how i felt last night, i just feel really moodless now to do anything or to even study for tomorrow's paper. I'm not trying to be EMO. Just how i feel now. But i'll be just fine.

I can't wait for this week to be over. It hasn't been good so far.. But i hope that it'll get better.

To Yufen.

Yufen, i wrote this when i was waiting for your leader's meeting to be over. Yet i didn't know how i was going to present this to you. I didn't know when was the right time. I guess now it's the time i gave it to you. Love you lots!

When I got to know you in two thousand five
The moment you walked straight into my life
I can never forget the way you love
They times you stood by me

You turned my life around
Changed me inside out
When you assured my heart
You'll be there for all time

When i was caught in a whirl wind
When i was in the depth of the deepest sea
You held my hand and never let go
And you gave my heart console

You set me on fire when i was cold
Took me into the realm of the unknown
My destiny is beginning to unfold
You told me things i was never told

You believed in someone like me
Shared my visions and dreams
Helped me become the person i should be
You met my every need

Every moment with you is precious to me
Even the adventure of catching the last 65
I will never forget the time in Paya Lebar
And all the free rides in 'Ah gong's' car

You're my god-sent angel
You are my everything
Thank you for all that you've done
You will always be in my heart

Arise And Build 2008.

It's Arise And Build weekend this coming week! I'm really so excited! Another opportunity to give to God. I found some photos online of some stadiums. I can't imagine how awesome our bulding is going to be like. It's going to be huge!!







Well, i'm visualizing how awesome our building will be like.



H.U.G.E



Alritey, i'll blog more next week during the Arise and Build week. Now got to get back to studying. After i rest. Haha. Oopsy!

My 5 Loaves And 2 Fishes.

I was just reflecting on my life last night. And i was reminded of a prayer that i made in June this year. I told God that just like the little boy with 5 loaves and 2 fishes, God, use me like how You used him. I remember telling someone that i know that i can't study and i'm not talented. And the only thing i know is to pray. I was chatting with Geraldine online a couple of days ago. And i was sharing with her that my connect group will be bringing 7 friends this week for service and how excited i am! As i began to share, i had a revelation. I never quite understood what Pastor meant by "prayer is the key to revival", until now. Last month, as i fasted for 21 days, all i could think about was the Cell Group members and E308 experiencing a breakthrough and revival. And now, i'm experiencing what Pastor always say. I strongly believe that prayer is the key to revival. Be it in your personal life or Cell Group. I can't wait for a greater breakthrough in my connect group!

To Jansen: Thank you, for always being such an encouragement to me! So, bringing 2 friends this week! Good job!! Keep it up! Let's grow our connect group and Cell Group together!

Make It Easy On Me.

It's been a rather long time since i last blogged. I suppose i've been coming home late recently. Not sure what am i going to blog about now also. I guess i'm having different colours of emotions right now. It's messed up. My mind is blank at this moment.

To YOU (you should know who you are): Thank you for every single day. I enjoy every single moment. I told you i have something for you. But i'll give it to you some other time. But i want to tell you this. I'm happy sacrifising all these. It's my honor. And i've got a secret to tell you, "i miss you like crazy".